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not really news… just random thoughts. sun is here. finally. started a class at work, which is pretty cool and will keep me busy the next two weeks. weekend was great. just felt completely relaxing, seeing a ton of my friends, hanging out with all of them. easter doesn’t mean anything to me. funny. la will b fun. i can’t wait to see a. again. he’s great. d, if u read this sorry but i won’t have time to hang out with you, i’m just going for one day basically. crazy. i came to realize i need at least 80k in savings to b able to afford a condo. that won’t happen anytime soon. byebye home. hello rent. i just cooked some rice and mushrooms, but the mushrooms looked kinda gross to me. hoping i wont get sick. eye hurts. not sure whats going on. conjunctivits i think. other eye stopped twitching. i guess im more relaxed finally. coachella. not sure yet. nick cave. always. mini. still the same. life. always good.

and more rain. i know, people are comparing san francisco to seattle now. weird. gives me the blues a bit. this was a weekend of introspection. a friend of mine came to visit. someone i hadn’t seen for a long time. was great being able to hang out with him. i missed the times we spent together in london. but it’s always weird seing how much we’ve also grown apart. i feel like i want to hold him or hug him as i would in london, but the friendship is just not the same.

i mean, it’s bound to happen don’t get me wrong. i still care for him and always will. and i will still miss him. and i will still keep in touch with him. but the hugs and the affection that once existed seems to have vanished. that made me sad. i’m an affectionate person. i’m always hugging my friends, male or female. even at work. hugs re-energize me. it’s all about energy flow. most people underrate hugs.

but now that i’m back at home, alone, i feel calm. finally have a couch, big and comfortable. which is great and definitely makes a difference. i can now put some music on and chill in the couch venting off in my blog, or reading a book. like now. i love this apartment. i just wish my friends would make an effort to drop by more often. i think in london people were used on having to travel to the other end of the world to see a friend. here people are so accostumed to having everything close by (yes, san francisco is tiny) that the east bay seems like the most remote place on earth.

i guess that’s the only reason i’d ever move back to the city. if i can afford to buy a condo there, then so be it. i’d get the best of both worlds. otherwise, i’ll get used to it. definitely now the couch made a difference. quality of life boost. hopefully i’ll start throwing the movie nights at my place soon.

in the meantime, it’s time to get back on track. life is good. i was driving back home in the rain today and i was smiling. yes, this weekend made me realize i definitely need someone in my life to love, and made me remember how much i miss my friend h. in lisbon, how important he is to me. but also made me rethink how incredibly lucky i am. how much my life has changed since i moved out of london. how much i love my friends in portugal, in london, in san francisco and everywhere else. how much i love my job and everyone at work. how much they are also some of the best friends i could possibly hope to have.

and how i am happy to be where i am right now :)

it truly is a miracle.

and it still rains… everyone is getting a bit fed up. and to be honest ever since i moved to california from london, i haven’t seen so much rain in my life. but it’s all good. it’s not cold, people are still smiling and being nice… which makes up for the grey weather. there was a bit of hope this evening. the new summertime means sunsets are later. i have to say, the most beautiful sunsets are here in california.

not many news around here. got a new rug for my apartment and finally bought a couch. the couch gets here on saturday only, so have a few days till then. the rug is here already. bought it from a friend of mine at work that is moving back home. she is super sweet. hope all goes well for her.

i slowly started thinking about what i want to do regarding a house investment. i think i’m going to look to buy a loft apartment. i love it. i love having space to breathe and walk around with no walls or doors around me. they inspire me somehow. so now it’s a matter of actually getting a nice savings. and looking around. and waiting. and asking people. and investigating. it’s too complicated. i need a nice recommendation for a realtor or something and start looking for loans and stuff. my current rent contract ends in september, and i just noticed that jack london square would be an awesome investment.

it’s this great little part of oakland, right next to the water… has a small marina, tons of coffee shops and places to walk around right next to the water. also has one of the best sushi/jazz restaurants in the bay, yoshi’s. sounds too good right? well, right now it’s still affordable. i’m expecting it to get prohibitevaly expensive in a year or so, so now is the time.

we’ll see if the bank agrees…